煙か土か食い物31/Note about "Kemuri ka Tsuchi ka Kuimono" ("Smoke, Soil or Sacrifices") (You know absolutely no connection with real life and families)

”Where are you ya, now?”
"Me?" Being asked, made a sweep. Where is here (ya)?
Middle of somewhere. (pp. 335)

This novel culminates with a sentence in that he tolerates himself.

You must have been tired so expectionally.